This post has been a long time coming, I'm afraid. And I doubt it's going to come as a surprise to many of you, but this will be my last post on this blog - if not indefinitely, for a very long time. I've been thinking about it for awhile, and the mass-exodus of other bloggers in the past couple weeks has finally made up my mind.
I started "Dancing to Recovery" with the intention of getting support and a chance to see my recovery in a new light. And, for awhile, it did exactly that. But I've grown tired of the negativity that has taken ahold of the ED blogosphere, and the last thing I need is to get swept up in it.
As I write this, I'm in the middle of a minor relapse. And I know I can snap out of it, but I need to stop relying on blogging as a crutch and figure out how to deal with things like this in real life.
I'm sorry if this comes across as harsh. I don't want to offend anyone. You girls have helped me get through some terribly rough times, and I'm so, so grateful to all of you.
But as I head into the next few years of my life in college (the "best" years of my life, some would say) I've realized how much I need change. I need a life that doesn't revolve around obsessing about everything I put in my mouth and the minutes of exercise I do to make up for it. I need to get out in the open air and sunshine - not stay in my room in front of a computer screen.
I need to learn to fight, love, and live fully.
Am I going to stop blogging entirely? Probably not. I'm addicted to writing and photography, now, so I will likely make the switcheroo over to Wordpress and start a new blog with a non-ED focus.
All this said, I'm still always available to anyone who needs support over Facebook, AIM, and email. You've all been there for me, and I want to be there for you, too.
So now, as per usual, I've rambled long enough. I wish all of you the best in recovery, and much love.
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