Wednesday, August 19, 2009

The ugly truth.

This post has been a long time coming, I'm afraid. And I doubt it's going to come as a surprise to many of you, but this will be my last post on this blog - if not indefinitely, for a very long time. I've been thinking about it for awhile, and the mass-exodus of other bloggers in the past couple weeks has finally made up my mind.

I started "Dancing to Recovery" with the intention of getting support and a chance to see my recovery in a new light. And, for awhile, it did exactly that. But I've grown tired of the negativity that has taken ahold of the ED blogosphere, and the last thing I need is to get swept up in it.

As I write this, I'm in the middle of a minor relapse. And I know I can snap out of it, but I need to stop relying on blogging as a crutch and figure out how to deal with things like this in real life.

I'm sorry if this comes across as harsh. I don't want to offend anyone. You girls have helped me get through some terribly rough times, and I'm so, so grateful to all of you.

But as I head into the next few years of my life in college (the "best" years of my life, some would say) I've realized how much I need change. I need a life that doesn't revolve around obsessing about everything I put in my mouth and the minutes of exercise I do to make up for it. I need to get out in the open air and sunshine - not stay in my room in front of a computer screen.

I need to learn to fight, love, and live fully.

Am I going to stop blogging entirely? Probably not. I'm addicted to writing and photography, now, so I will likely make the switcheroo over to Wordpress and start a new blog with a non-ED focus.

All this said, I'm still always available to anyone who needs support over Facebook, AIM, and email. You've all been there for me, and I want to be there for you, too.

So now, as per usual, I've rambled long enough. I wish all of you the best in recovery, and much love.


Tuesday, August 11, 2009


Well, looking back on my last few posts, I realized they were entirely devoid of food pornage.



So, to reassure you blogettes that I am indeed still enjoying delicious foodicles, and ALOT of them, how about some photog of my recent eats?

Sound good?

Mhmkay. Thought so.

So, to begin:

...what IS that, you ask?

Why, cherry Fage with crumbly graham crackers, of course.
= Cherry creme pie!

Uh. Can you say yum?

(Also - note my snazzy new bowl. Roadtrip purchases ftw.)

Other 'licious snackies have also been consumed, among them:

Cherry Pie Larabar.

With a cold glass of almond milk = perfection.

Review: I know that a lot of bloggers have given this bar the thumbs-down because of its tartness. But I loved it! I think my sweet tooth may be taking a bit of a back-seat, nowadays...(Horror!)

Also, I've rekindled my love for Greek yogurt with a healthy dosage of Fage. Because sometimes Activia just doesn't cut it...
(Kidding, Lauren, m'dear. I'm still an Activia-lover at heart. ;] )

Best snack evaaaarr.

Oh. Baby.
The things I would do to have 113094205 more of these in my fridge.
But they're oh-so-expensive. =[

Lessee. What else?

Oh! Of course!

I madez bread all by me onesy!

Yup. Well, with the help of a machine....but still.

Gosh. I love the versatility of bread. It's like a blank canvas.

You can toast it, throw some jam on it, and pair it with yoggie and fruit...And voila! Breakfast.

Or smother it in mustard, cheese, ham, lettuce and tomato, add some chips and yogurt-y raisins...And voila! Lunch.

Last but not least, I've been dutifully following my breakfast-for-dinner-at-least-once-a-week rule. See below:

Blue cheese buckwheat waffle with Morgasmic salad.
("Morgasmic" being just another word for "I-can't-remember-what-I-threw-in-there-but-it-was-pretty-dern-delicious".)

In other news: Disneyland.

Yes, it was stressful. Yes, I struggled quite a bit with keeping myself on track. Yes, I didn't quite manage to meet my caloric requirements for most of the days and am paying for it now.

But was it worth it?

Hellz yes.

Between having dessert at the Blue Bayou, the restaurant inside the Pirates of the Caribbean ride:
(HIGHLY recommended, btw. Avoid paying the normal $30/plate for an actual meal. Yikes.)

The atmosphere. (And moi.)

The food: A cookie "boat" topped with 'nilla ice cream and smothered in 23095245 different yummy sauces.
Drooling is permitted.

Being a dork with my (personalized) Mickey Mouse ears:

Hur hur.

Being a dork in general with Kevin:

Tower of Terror.
(Lulz at the couple in the back.)

California Screaming.
Front row = whootwhoot!

And enjoying all the sparkle of Disneyland's famous Electric Parade:


Coolest float by far.

...I had an amazing time. Worth every penny.

Can't wait to go back! Supposedly Disneyland at Christmas is pretty effin' spectaculous. Methinks I'll get an annual pass (it's only an hour away from Scripps! SCORE.) and head back around then. *nodnod*

Mhmk. So I know this is turning out to be an epically-long post, and I appreciate those of you who have stuck with my until now, but there's one teeny last thing that's happened since I last updated...



Yup, my Facebook buddies doubtless already know this, but I turned the big "One-eight" on Saturday.

Do I feel any different? Naw.

But supposedly the government says that I can buy porn vote now, which is pretty exciting. None of the other perks of being 18 (buying cigs, for instance. No lung cancer for this girl!) are really appealing.

Still, I guess it's nice to finally be considered an adult.

And birthdays always give me an excuse to do some of my favorite things, among them:

Bonfire-ing on the beach.

Blowing out b-day cake candles.

And enjoying said cake with a hefty scoop of ice cream!

Okay, I think I've blerbed long enough, now. Hope y'all are having a splendifferous day!

Much luffs <3


Saturday, August 1, 2009

The happiest place on Earth!

Hey chicas. =]

So I'm going to be in Disneyland from today until next Tuesday or Wednesday. Thought I'd update y'all so you'd know I'm not dead. But never fear - I'll be back with a nomlicious post chock-full of food porn!

Much luff. <3